Why I'm single

So I was sitting with my cousin, and I randomly started doing something weird, that got me thinking how many of these other weird things are the reason while i'm single? I'll start a list.
1. I randomly will raise my hands and say "what what" I'm clearly in junior high still
2. I will talk in accent that no one knows where it's from. it's fine.
3. I get distracted with in mintues.
4. I have over five random laughs.
5. I laugh at my own jokes
6. I think i'm funny even when I don't say a joke
7. I get an idea and before thinking it through just do it.
8. I will talk in my own version of chinese.
9. I'm to sarcastic for my own good.
I'm sure there's more but that's all I will share for now:) Then it got me thinking at least i'm not a prisoner or something right? These quirks could be looked as charming? haha who knows! oh well! haha till next time!

I feel my saviors love!

Hey there! so I haven't been  good at this blog thing but I have some free time tonight so why not:)  So lately I have been kind of in a rut and not really feeling the saviors love and that is because I withdrew myself.. but after a while I realized that it was my fault for not going to the lord for everything. So after I had a hard few weeks I decided I needed my father in heaven, to help me from what I've been going through and to forgive me. I won't give you the details of what has been going on, but I can honestly say it was one of the most trying few weeks of my life still kind of is. But I have been praying literally everyday a million times a day! I pray right when I wake up and whenever I start feeling down or anxious I pray and then of course at night. I love that hymn "I need thee every hour" it's so true. I really needed to reset my priorities and put the gospel first, I'm always more happy when I do. So I was reading Alma chapter 36. Amazing. go read it! It was kind of how I was feeling in verse 3 it says " I do know that whosoever shall put their trust in god shall be supported in their trials and their troubles, and their afflictions, and shall be lifted up at the last day" I love that! it just shows that you really need to put trust in god. I do think that we all kind of loose that focus. I know that god does hear every prayer even though we might not get the answer we want, we should only want what his will is anyway. He really does know what's best for us. I think that is one of the main reasons that we go through certain trials is so we can remember who we need to put first. God's peace is the only peace I want. You can't be happy all the way happy without our saviors love. now on to verse 12: " But I was racked with eternal torment for my soul was harrowed up to the greatest degree and racked with all of my sins. 13:" Yea, I did remember all my sins and iniquities, for which I was tormented with the pains of hell, yea I saw that I had rebelled against my god and that I had not kept his holy commandments. It goes on to say that he was racked with torment while he was harrowed up by the memory of his many sins, then he cried within his heart " O Jesus thou son of god, have mercy on me who am in the gall of bitterness, and when he thought this he could remember his pains no more. He also says that there could be nothing so exquisite and so bitter as his pains yet on the other hand there can be nothing so exquisite and sweet as my joy. Have we all felt like this at one time or another? I know I have. I have always been taught to turn to Christ and give him our burdens, but I never really tried that, I'm trying that. I know that I will never get anything that I cannot handle, sometimes it may seem that way but god knows what and who you are capable of becoming. Elder Holland said " when life is hard remember we are not the first to ask if there is another way" I cringe when I think of what the savior went through for me. My testimony has gotten deeper of the atonement. I know that Christ feels EVERYTHING we are going through whether it be: getting over sins, physical problems, mental problems, a broken heart. He feels it and is the only one who can succor us completely. I am so grateful for this gospel. To me gospel means change. We can change anytime it is never to late for us to come unto Christ and let him heal us and forgive us. If your feeling forgotten go read the talk from the relief society broadcast in 2012 " the lord has not forgotten you" by Linda reeves, it really put a whole new perspective for me. anyway that's my thought for the day:) As for a catch up on my life nothing to exciting to report! thanks for reading!

What's my age again?

Yikes! I can't believe I'm really 23.. I have been thinking about this a lot lately, and seriously  what good is there about being 23 haha? the night before I turned 23 a month ago.. I was listening to good ole taylor swift .. I don't know about you but I'm feeling 22, had to enjoy it while I could.. I wanted a new theme song for my new age and I searched google and I dare you to go look up the songs, every song about 23 is super depressing and sad. In the worlds of Blink 182 .. no one likes you when your 23.. is pretty much how i'm feeling right about now haha! I get on facebook just to see someone else is engaged, married, starting a full blown family, graduating! it's crazy! then you look at me and I'm just kinda doing my own thing haha! at least I got the mission going for me right? but seriously what have I been doing with the last 23 years of my life!? than it got me thinking, honestly who cares what everyone else is doing or not doing..everyone looks at everyone else's life to find something they want and wish. so as I was thinking about that I realized your life is just that YOUR life. you really can't compare your life to anyone else. I had to take a step back to see what and who I really am. I really think everybody needs to take a step back sometimes and examine who they are! I'm 23, I have found true friends, I have fallen in love, I've had my heart broken, I've had pointless jobs, I've traveled, I have a firm foundation of the gospel. I laugh more then I cry, I've gotten 4 nieces and 1 nephew who are my world! I try to see the positive in everything, I love my family more than life and I seem to love them more and more as I get older. I know what kind of future I want, I know the kind of guy I want to marry, I know what kind of wife I want to be. You can love your life no matter where you are at. I know sometimes it can be a struggle to watch other people succeed, but I hope that we can be happy for them and enjoy those moments with them, don't forget to enjoy your own. You only get to live this moment once, so don't waste your life waiting for the next big thing to happen in your life. Don't worry about what others are doing focus on what your doing! Most of my favorite memories are not any huge life changing event but just something that randomly occured! I love my life! I'm going to to choose to not just wait for something or anything it'll happen when it'll happen.. anyway that is what it's like to be 23 in my life haha! I figured why not put some picutres of being 22!- which so far as been the best year:) but I have a feeling 23 will be even greater!

Mission decision!

I'm not really sure how to start these things, but here we go! I decided to do my first blog post on why I decided to serve a mission! I will be honest I have NEVER wanted to go on a mission and I mean never. It was just something I never wanted to do or had the desrire to do. So imagine my surprise when a few months ago I was sitting in institute and I just had this strong feeling to go on a mission, well I got that thought out of my head as fast as it came! then a few weeks later it just kept coming to my head so I caved and decided to give it an earnest prayer. I did and nothing happened. I thought I was off the hook, than about a month or so later I had a strong feeling to make an appointment with the bishop that afternoon wasn't sure why but I went for it. As I was sitting in relief society that afternoon, I got this overwhelming feeling that the lord wanted me to go on a mission, then the teacher announced the lesson was on missionary work...so that was the asnwer I got I needed to go. I got the paper work done in a couple weeks, and submitted them! it was the most nerve racking decison of my life! I had honestly felt every emotion in the world. I was nervous! than as that white envelope was in my hands it finally felt real. That's when the excitement came! I was called to Irvine California! which is my dream place so that was a relief! I thought for sure I was going to to to Idaho- not that I have anything against Idaho just not where I wanted to go haha! it's been crazy! I went through the temple a few weeks ago and honestly my testimony just got deeper going through. I'm happier. This gospel has changed my life. I'm not near the person I was a year ago.I promise I am the last person anyone even me would expect to go on a mission, but that's what change is all about!  I'm truly grateful for the gospel and the atonement. To me the gospel is all about change. I had a change of heart, I got my own testimony. I have never known such happiness in my life than the gospel. If I can teach one person this amazing message and they feel the joy I feel from it then it will be all worth it. I'm sad and scared to leave the life I love behind, but I know it's where i'm suppose to be. why I don't know yet but I will.:)